A time of separation….. a time of silence….

Ecc 3:1  To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
Ecc 3:3  A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
Ecc 3:7  A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

         It’s been seven months since my last written entry, and it has been a time of casting away things which were interrupting, or I should say, interfering with my seeking and  communing with the Lord.  I felt I needed to have a closer walk with Him so I started to withdraw myself from those “little interferences” and ‘Face Book’ was one of them.  Having a ‘high strung’ nature I found FB was becoming an addiction, I couldn’t go a day without checking up on who wrote what, where they were at, who liked something I wrote, what new picture was posted, and who commented on a Christian teaching posted on a few of my “friends” pages….it was relentless, and it was causing me some emotional hyperactivity!

          I stopped seeing and communicating with certain people with whom I felt I needed to step back from and take a closer look ‘why’ I was desiring to socialize with them.  It was a total scrutinizing of the motives. As I took the necessary steps to ‘withdraw’ I cried out to the Lord to bring me closer to Him, and to reveal those things which hindered a closer walk with Him.  We  really do need to cause ourselves to seek the Lord, so if we ask, He shall do it, and did he do it!

1Ch_16:10  Glory ye in his holy name: let the heart of them rejoice that seek the LORD.
1Ch_16:11  Seek the LORD and his strength, seek his face continually.
Psa_9:10  And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.
Psa_22:26  The meek shall eat and be satisfied: they shall praise the LORD that seek him: your heart shall live for ever.
Psa_27:8  When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
Psa_63:1  A Psalm of David, when he was in the wilderness of Judah. O God, thou art my God; early will I seek thee: my soul thirsteth for thee, my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is;

          Mat_6:33  But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
Mat_7:7  Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

         These are but a few, but I do think it gets my point across.  And when we set out to seek the Lord for answers, as I did, I just asked Him to reveal those things which were so deep that needed healing or deliverance to be able to repent from , “please shine your Holy Spirit within me and let me see those sins, and bondage’s which needed to be dealt with”….and you know what?  He did, step by step and bit by bit it was accomplished.  I had some real trials and emotional issues, and some terrible besetting sins, and I knew it was affecting my close walk with Him.  I was also fed up with my position in a private home as a attendant, felt lonely, no real social life, everything was just dead and the person I worked for was becoming unbearable for me.  I was not in a peaceful and calm place, I was suffering from many bouts of depression, emotional mode swings, impatience with everything and all most everybody.

          When I had reached a plateau of “having enough” I wanted to run;   I was on the re-occurring,  self-sabotaging road again!  Something I did from the age of 4, anything too uncomfortable after a while, I would seek out a change.  I cried out to my Heavenly Father and asked for help, “show me what to do…….Please?”  When He saw I was being sincere and truly desiring, these simple words came to my mind….”it’s not yet the time” (to run) and……”Humble yourself”.  I knew immediately what He was desiring  me to do, that I should humble myself before the gentleman with whom I attend too, and discuss with him my concerns and frustrations, also along with some apologizing which was forthcoming due to my “attitude” towards him.

          Now as I mentioned this  scripture came to mind, which I read from a devotional reading this morning, it’s from Exodus 14:13 …..“Stand still and see the salvation of the Lord”….  When we at times come to a place that is difficult….you know between a “rock and a hard place” we need to just “be still….stand still……wait patiently….and listen”.  There is a  disciplinary phrase that is utilized now days by parents towards children when they are out of control, “Time Out” and that I find is befitting to what I’m trying to convey.    And trust me this took many years for me to come to understand this, because I did at one time view “chastisements” as a rejection, I know differently now, and the Lord got me there step by step.

          I read from Joel 2:11 “His Camp is very great”, and in this chapter the Lord speaks of His Great mercy and kindness, and how He uses ALL things great and small to bring His people to repentance.  He uses all creation for His use, for judgement and correction.  In verse 25, the Lord states “And I will restore to you the years the locust hath eaten, the canker worm, and the caterpillar, and the palmer worm, my great army which I sent among you”.  In other words, He pulls down and with the same hand builds up.  All for our good.  It is the Lord that brings these things upon us to “Chastise” us, to correct us and to deliver us from our fleshly ways.  It all works to bring about the Peaceable fruit of Righteousness.

          As it states in the next verse 26; “And ye shall eat in plenty (Spiritual Food) and be satisfied, and Praise the name of the Lord your God, that hath dealt wonderously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed”.  I understand this… that when we come to judgement now concerning sinful ways and attitudes and come to repentance, we won’t be ashamed when we stand at the judgement seat of Christ on the last day.

           So as we allow the Lord to chastise us, there is a promise which follows, as read in verse 32, of Joel 2;  “And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be delivered; for in Mount Zion and in Jerusalem shall be deliverance, as the LORD hath said, and in the remnant whom the LORD shall call.”

            I will give a resounding AMEN to that!

            So dear brethren be blessed, and despise NOT the chastisements of our dear LORD, for it truly is for our own good.  And for some of us, it can take awhile to truly understand and believe this. But HE shall get us there!  So give thanks to our most wonderful creator and maker of our souls!  For the Love of God shall in no wise cast us out and nothing can separate us from HIS Merciful Love and Care!


The Bountiful dealings of the Lord……they are painful, but wonderfully needed.

Heb 12:11  Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.

        My morning alone time with my Lord brought me to a place of thanksgiving, for I wrote in my journal; “Thank you Lord for the season of spring, renewal within my soul! For the Lord has dealt bountifully with my soul!”  This gratefulness was due to the Lord’s hand being heavy upon me, for He was dealing with me concerning some deep, long besetting sin that I have been struggling with for too many yearsI put my trust and hope in Him to deliver me from it, and boy did he ever! 

        In His time in His season, He brought forth the promised death and burial of the old man,oh I Praise the Lord for His faithfulness, He brought forth the needed judgement, and now I know I can walk in the newness of the new man which is in Christ Jesus by faith!

       The word bountiful beautifully expresses my sentiments after the time of chastisement.  It brought forth the needed fruit of righteousness, and it brought me into a renewed fellowship with the Lover of my Soul!  Bountiful is expressed four times in the Old Testament they all occur in the lovely Psalms of David:

Psa 13:5  But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation.
Psa 13:6  I will sing unto the LORD, because he hath dealt bountifully with me.

Psa 116:6  The LORD preserveth the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me.
Psa 116:7  Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee.
Psa 116:8  For thou hast delivered my soul from death, mine eyes from tears, and my feet from falling.
Psa 119:17  GIMEL. Deal bountifully with thy servant, that I may live, and keep thy word.
Psa 119:18  Open thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law.
Psa 142:7  Bring my soul out of prison, that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shalt deal bountifully with me.

       This word occurs four times, and 4 represents the creativeness of the Lord, such as fire, water, earth, heaven.  Then there are the four seasons, and the Lord has often used the four seasons to show me how they compare with our walk of faith.  We can and will experience all sorts of seasons in our soul, but that can be a whole other entry as the Lord should lead.  But for now this is dealing with the loving chastisements of our Heavenly Father.  If we have placed ourselves as the “living sacrifices” mentioned in Romans 12:1, He shall surely take us up on that “self-offering” so that He may sanctify every portion. every part of our Spirit, soul, mind, and body. 

        It took the Lord a while to settle me down and view His corrections as loving, my mother corrected us harshly and many times unjustly and with violence and physical abuse.  The Lord had to really do some work to get me to trust Him, I weep now at the thought of His gentle loving-kindness towards me, His endless patience with me through these past three plus decades.  He comes down to our level, He understands all we have been through, and it took me so long to understand that I needed not to pretend to be something I was not, He helped me to bring down so many barriers of self-protection, but through all of His corrections….He got me there….Jesus did it all!

      So the next verses from Hebrews are to encourage you to trust in the Lord and to know that His chastisement are for our good….and of course for His Glory, for He that has started a good work in us shall finish it! 

Heb 12:5  And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:
Heb 12:6  For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.
Heb 12:7  If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?
Heb 12:8  But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.
Heb 12:9  Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live?
Heb 12:10  For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.

        It’s His promise to us, and trust me I have found that my Lord, our Lord, our God is worthy to be trusted, and you shall cherish Him for it, for it truly is the most fulfilling, the most heart wrenching Holy love that your soul shall EVER know!

Predestined unto Salvation……by the will of God

        Eph 1:4  “According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love:”
Eph 1:5  “Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will,”

       I read Ephesians 1:1-8 on the morning of May 1oth after having gone through another episode known as the ‘sanctification’ process.  It’s always very difficult when that season of chastisement is upon me, and the hand of Lord is heavy for he desires to bring something to judgement that resides within me, and I need to see “it to the death”.  As the scriptures state:

Heb 12:5  “And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:”
Heb 12:6  “For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.”
Heb 12:7  “If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?”

      Trust me when I say the Lord has plenty to work upon, due to the sexual abuse, physical and emotional abuse.  Also dealing with some of the “chaff” leftover from the homosexual lifestyle.  And the ‘cult’ I got involved within months of me becoming a born-again believer and all the false teaching, which happened to be “doctrine of demons”.  Gender issues….. spiritual pride, pride, anger, all the works of the flesh, trying to live holy in the strength of the flesh…..I mean the list just goes on…..and on, but so does the faithfulness of our Lord in dealing with all of our individual “isms” as I tend to call them.

      So after the encounters dealing with the sins of the flesh and feeling rather”raw” for a couple of days, after the sting of correction, conviction, confessing, repenting and forgiveness,  the Lord caused me to read the above the day after in my morning quiet time. What a blessed time it was with Him.  He used it to show me that all I’ve gone through, presently go through, and will go through, is all under His control, and that it has all been pre-planned, orchestrated according to His perfect will and it is all  proof of His incredible unwavering love and faithfulness as a Father.

     He caused me to see more clearly the reality of that Love, He…. God the Father, sent Jesus Christ in my place to shed His blood, so that I may be adopted, purchased by His blood, and being accepted in the beloved.  Beloved…….do you know what that means to really know and feel that I am “beloved”That we lost sinners..nigh unto eternal death and darkness, have been predestined and chosen for this intimate, loving, caring, truthful and secure relationship with the God of the Universe, the Father to our most beloved Saviour, and that He had planned all of this just for us, and to cast that most Holy,  Wonderful, and everlasting Love upon us and within us through and by the Love of Christ!  This always makes me weep to know and see such love, when my parents could not love me as they should, but GOD came and took me up, as He can take us each up into His Everlasting arms.

      That morning quiet time, ended up being a time of refreshing…..time of restoring….a time to remind me of and fill me with His Love divine. As the scriptures state:

Eph_1:6  “To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved.”

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